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I'll Miss You, Where Ever You Are!

I haven't blogged for over a week now. Somehow I can't get my mind around it. I lost my youngest Mamaji this Friday.

It was totally unexpected, he was in his early 50's. He woke up in the morning on Thursday complaining of uneasiness, and within the hour slipped into unconsciousness. He never woke up from that deep sleep. We later found out that he had suffered a brain hemorrhage. His heart stopped beating on Friday morning. Within a period of 24 hours, he went from a lively, loving, stylish human being to just a memory.

I don't think it has really sunk into me, especially since I could not go to his funeral as my younger brother has his exams.

He used to call me his lucky charm - because he finally got a job the day I was born. This is 1983, when jobs were not so plenty. And he needed the job - he had to impress his childhood sweetheart's dad. So that he would agree to their marriage.

He did go on to marry her. I remember being so excited for his wedding, I was 4 or 5 then, walking & dancing in the baraat, dressing up in a bridal lengha for his reception. It just seems like it was barely any time ago. The picture below is of the newly weds - days after their marriage.

They were blessed with two beautiful kids. They both are very young, barely out of their teens.

It is hard to believe that the next time I go to Jalandhar he won't be there. In some way I'm glad that my last memory of him is of last year, happy & healthy - when I had gone for my cousin's marriage - and not him lying lifeless.

He was such a good natured, wonderful, human being. It somehow seems unfair that someone as wonderful as him, lived for such a short time on earth. I feel like the world is poorer, by having lost him.

I have really run out of words now, there is this feeling inside my throat - like something very intense is bubbling in there. I thought I would feel better by writing (since I'm not a very expressive person with regards to my emotions), but I now feel his loss even more.

But I don't want his memory to just fade away, hence this post. Somehow I feel that my putting down my thoughts here - I may help him stay in my mind a bit longer. I want the world to know, the amazing person that he was.

RIP Verinder Singh Jaswal.

You were one of a kind, you were a Rockstar!

I'll Miss You.....


  1. Tanveer he will remain a Rockstar. Dont be sad, it will make him sad too. Smile and let him be in peace.

  2. My heart felt apologies Tanveer. I can realize the pain. I lost my father a few years ago too. The pain never goes away, you just learn to love with it. Hope your family stays strong throughout!

  3. Extremely Sorry for you loss! I'm sure your Mamaji will always be with you in all the success you accomplish further. No words can console this kind of loss. Hold on tight to the good memories.

  4. :( very sorry for your loss Tanveer.. May he rest in peace..

  5. very sorry for your loss Tanveer. May he rest in peace.

  6. So sorry for your loss T. It's heartbreaking to lose someone you're so attached to. Stay strong, and I hope the memory of him will be enough with time.

    You really were his lucky charm. Hugs xx


  7. I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my dadaji early this year .. I know how it feels like. Losing someone you love is a painful experience. I hope you are able to put aside the pain and continue remembering him with a smile.
    May he rest in peace
    Tke care tanny !

  8. I have tears in my eyes.. he was my beloved paaji ... my cousin bro... this pic is of madhuban.. my mom so cant believe as she recollects all these fond memories and for her he was like her kid... my mind is completely switched off and i keep looking around for him... cant express my sadness... we will really miss him dearly...

  9. My heartfelt condolences to you and the family!


  10. I'm so sorry for your loss Tanveer. His story is so sweet. I'm sure his memory will live on through you and his children. Lots of love and prayers from me to you and your family. Be strong sweety! *hugs*

  11. I'm so sorry for your loss Tanveer! You dod a good thing by penning it down, as you said you'll always have this to look back upon and by this, he has all our good wishes for the rest of his journey. May God bless his family, take care tanveer.

  12. Condolences.
    May his soul rest in peace.
    Stay strong.

  13. I'm so sorry for your loss. It must be so hard for your family and especially his immediate family. Rest in peace.

  14. Very sorry for your loss, Tanveer. Keep him alive in your memories and hope you will find the strength to come to terms wit hit.
    May his soul rest in peace.
    Even though you mentioned you are not good at conveying emotions, I felt everything you wrote.

  15. sorry for ur loss Tanveer..I know wat u r going thru..may his soul rest in peace

  16. Am so sorry for your loss Tanveer... His love story seems so sweet and yet so real... you are right, your last memory of him being all happy and jovial will see you through...

  17. Tanveer, I am so sorry for your loss. See, at least, in your memory he would always be the jovial person that he was.
    May his soul rest in peace

  18. Very sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with yours and his families.

  19. Hey Tanveer.. very sorry for your loss dear.. May his soul rest in peace.. take care..

  20. My heartfelt condolences to you Tanveer !! The body is gone but the memories remain !!

  21. sorry for your loss Tanveer..pls take care...

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  23. I am sorry for the loss Tanveer , may his soul rest in peace .
    Not all of us are blessed with big circle of family and friends and you are one of the luckiest person to have a good family support and friends too .
    A big hug to you dear

  24. Sorry for the loss dear and you will remain his lucky charm where ever he is. His memories will always be with you and no one can take them away from you. Take care and don't be sad. I hope his children are OK.

  25. sorry for ur hope u feel up to a post soon

  26. Condolences to you and your family Tanveer.
    It was really moving to read this post.
    May his soul rest in peace. God bless.

  27. Oh Tanveer I am so sorry for your loss...May he rest in peace and may God give strength to the family members to cope with the loss.

  28. I wanted to show my support too Tanveer di..but don't know what to say..these moments in life are so painful that words simply do not do any justice to my heartfelt condolences..I only hope and pray for you and your family to move on from this tragic loss and keep his happy memories alive..I've gone through the loss of losing my grandmothers and an aunt..I know how terrible it feels to loose a loved one..may his soul rest in peace.

  29. Thank you all for your support and understanding my need to take a break! Love you :D


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